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Girl D

The Backbone

Girl D

 
 

She’s sweet but a psycho

 

in the way she throws her body like an Eric Prydz video. I will always call on you. Fleshy bounds fall away like the sequins straddling his arms. We cast off mortal limbs for clean minds. Call me crazy, but hiding behind her Roman blinds we build a world of power, a little-bit-mixed, but all together unrestrained. Two bare feet STOMP // SLAP // CLICK the coffee table into being, transmuted into our miniature stage to the world. Unscripted speeches of love, of equality, of neutrality, of economy, projected to a colossal crowd of four. More and more we give and take, moving through the stairs, the carpet, the stilted balcony. Hiding under tables, secrets whisper themselves to us, unleashing power, matching it hour for hour. Our worlds are somewhat tortured like all infallible humankind, but we collide like sugary syrup, bubble-pop-gum sweetness. Each movement of this night our right. We accept, respect, connect, until every molecule of this space is blanketed by our tenderness and although

 

            London is lonely

            as a starless night, we are

            all psycho-sweetness.

  

The Wickham Arms, Brockley

6 April 2023

 
 

 <3

after Open Water

 

You emerge, naked, bereft.

You are the drowned street corner

The wind-rustled Walkers packet.

You are the Northern Line at the age of 29.

Time marches on, time trips back.

 

Time decomposed whilst

you lay in your love-coffin.

 

You know that loving is both

Swimming and drowning.

You know love is to be fractured

And splintered. To bleed and heal.

You ache your inched body to reawaken.

 

Whilst you love-lay in time

your coffin decomposes.

 

Your body has been carved

With crumbled teeth. Bitten off,

Chewed, like ragged caramel.

You binged time compressed to him.

He has your number; your number is up.

 

Your coffin lays whilst love-lie,

you decompose in time.

 

Your being is his misapplied power,

Manipulated to measure his inadequacy.

Owned, contracted, a future-forward.

When done, he leaves you spoiling,

Coughing, shrouded in bombed love-shrapnel.

  

4 March 2023

Peckham, London

 
 

Girl’s Just Want to Have Fun

Cyndi Lauper

Part D

 

What finished me off, was the phone calls she kept receiving, through windows, in pizza boxes. His digits tattooed into her bank account as pounded signs. I watched her run from oppression in her too-tight sports bra, her tits pushing so much they obscured the Adidas logo she’d paid a premium for. The zip was always halfway done up. Like her personality. Waiting to be taken out to dance not realising we no longer wore trainers in the dance halls.

 

29 November 2019

The Hurst, Shropshire